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Angel Card

April 25, 2013

Monday turned out to be a really good day.

Monday was Soul Card Reading and the cards that came up were so welcome. The first was:

First Card is from Doreen Virtue’s Healing With The Angels Oracle Cards:

Listening:

“This card is a validation from your angels that you really are hearing them. You have been receiving repetitive messages through your feelings, dreams, visions, inner voice, or knowingness.

By drawing this card, your angels ask you to give all doubts or worries about Divine guidance to them.”

Soul Guidance:

Are you listening and trusting the messages?

I always ask the Universe for signs to confirm my inner guidance. Request a clear sign to show you that you’re on the right track.

The next was very thought-provoking, it didn’t fully hit me until later. So I am pondering this one.

Second Card is from Esther and Abraham Hicks’s Well-Being Cards:

Anything I can Imagine being, doing, or having – I can be, do or have.

“As you ask yourself why you want it, the essence of your desire is activated – and the Universe begins to bring it to you.

(It’s as easy to create a castle as a button.)”

Soul Guidance:

Wow, that seems so easy! What do you want to be, have or do?

Why do you want it, why is it important to you?

With that cool start to the day, having a day of lovely sunshine was a real bonus. It is still chilly with the wind from the north, but it felt more like a Spring day and gave me hope the real Spring weather will be here soon. Certainly the flowers have been blooming whatever the weather has been. I went to see my chiropractor Dr. Cheryl – I always enjoy working with her because she is very gentle and I have come to trust her. She has been working on my right shoulder because it is the one that doesn’t work too well, I can’t raise my arm up with out compensating and I need it to work as it was originally designed to function. That may also be why I have had trouble with my right shoulder and the right side of my neck. I can now put my arm up a bit higher, it took time for it get that way, it will take time to get it back together.

Funny, now that I look back at the day, I didn’t spend much time in the sunshine. After seeing Cheryl, I met my friend Patti for coffee and lunch – I haven’t seen her in quite a while. I met her at NWPMA – that is my Northwest Promotional Marketing Association – at one of the Fall Showcases in Bellevue. She focuses in gold mining supplies but also does t-shirts, rubber stamps and whatever people want. She has taught me a lot and she says I have taught her – I don’t feel we are in competition. She and her husband have had so much going on – they have been trying to get a loan modification, what a nightmare. She also has had a lot of family problems and they continue. Gosh, I don’t have anything to worry about next to her. lately she has been doing a lot of the talking, quite fair since I have done a lot of talking in the last two years. She had to deal with her Mom, not sure exactly what the problem was, but she certainly understood what I have been going through with Mom. That helped so much!

I left about 3 and went home – I had to make my bed before Eddie came home. It was lovely driving in the sun. my window open. I will say, we have had sun the last 4 days and it has been great but there is cold wind from the north, so the shade isn’t all that balmy. It was in the 30’s in the morning for Eddie at work – standing on the Stratodeck is cold!

We are both really glad we have the new shades. I left them up in the morning so the sun would come in and warm the house. It certainly makes a difference and also keeps the warmth in when it is cold and rainy. It’s been a few days since I turned on the furnace. Monday was a delightful day and I am feeling better. Not anywhere specific, just all over feel better. I’ll take it!

Tags:angel cards, Doreen Virtue, Healing With The Angels Oracle Cards, soul guidance, Spring, sunshine
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The Queen’s Birthday

April 21, 2013

This week Charlotte, Joyce, Lois and I had lunch on Thursday. We have been doing birthdays, but the group is now down to 4. Plus Joyce has a birthday on Dec. 31, Charlotte has hers at the end of January and mine is mid January. So I suggested that I could do a Queen’s Birthday. The Queen wasn’t born in June, but they celebrate her birthday at that time because the weather is better. Imagine Trooping the Colour in the poring rain or snow! So instead of having two birthday in january, we are able to spread them out – we can just go out to lunch just because also.

I went up with Eddie that morning – yes, up at 4:00 in the morning – still dark as a pocket – and we drove up to Lynnwood for a bagel and coffee at Panera. Then I used Eddie’s computer to check my email – then he needed it. So I took my book up to the balcony to read for a while. The Stratodeck was closed because they were putting up the canopy for summer – they didn’t want visitors going up there in case somebody tripped or hurt themselves. I have been reading a book that really hooked me, so I wanted to finish it to see who were the bad guys. Not quite the ending I expected – I like it that way.

I left and went to see the metaphysical bookstore I had visited quite a while ago – a dangerous place because I saw things I wanted to buy. I did buy something – a Spirit Cat.

There is a card that goes with it to explain. I tried scanning it but the post won’t allow it – not sure why. It says on the card:

The Cat Spirit brings intuition, autonomy and gives access to the supernatural. Cats can see in the dark and are very magnetic and sensual. Your Spirit Cat Cats can see in the dark and are very magnetic and sensual. Cats can see in the dark and are very magnetic and sensual. Your Spirit Cat can help you develop your intuition, remain confident in moments of darkness and overcome challenges with agility.

I will admit I am not sure how all this works or what I need to do, if anything. I am glad I bought the cat, it was the last one and it was one of those moments when I knew I would kick myself if I didn’t. I also bought a small leather pouch to keep it from getting scratched – I don’t know if Dolomite scratches or not. Wonder if I need to give it a name and decide what sex.

After that I went over to Pacific Fabrics to drool over fabric – I found some I really liked but don’t have a project for it. I just want it. I didn’t buy any but it was hard to walk away without any of it. I also checked out some patterns, but didn’t buy – I haven’t done any quilting in a long time. I am beginning to miss it. By then it was time to go meet the group for lunch – I was also hungry so I was ready.

They chose a pizza place called Sparta’s, not my favorite but I was glad to see them. I had a sudden yen for lasagna, it’s been a long time since the last one. I was able to get the one on the senior menu, the smallest and by George I finished it. But I felt so stuffed, it will be a long while before I feel like have it again.

They brought me gifts and they were great. Charlotte gave me the Queen’s Touring Kit.

It’s a small box with some great copy on it. The front says Whilst Parading About the Kingdom. It has three pieces inside:

Body Mist to Exude an Air of Authority with a Spritz of Royal Rose

Royal Decree Tablet – Rule the Roost with 32 Crystal White Pages. That means I get to write my own decrees, not have to follow someone else’s. Cool! On the back it says:

Uncommonly Convenient Crystal White Paper

For your Highness to

1 Bequeath Servants with Royal Commands

2 Leave Behind Praise for Excellence in Servitude

Soap to Reign Supreme whilst Squeaky Clean.

But Charlotte wasn’t quite finished. She had a great card as well. There is a picture of a tiara and underneath it:

If you think of birthdays as diamonds, you have quite a tiara. In side is the kicker.

Under Happy Birthday Your Majesty, she wrote “Of course I have one more diamond in my tiara than you do!” That’s because I always kid her she is a year older than I am – she got me good this time!

We had such a good time I was sorry I had to leave. I had to leave about 2:30 to go back to the Future of Flight to pick up Eddie. There was more traffic than I expected so I was 2 or 3 minutes late. He said he had hoped I would come by 2:45 because there was so much going in the office it was driving him crazy. I know my first thought was to feel guilty and say I’m sorry – but I caught myself and decided I wouldn’t. So we went to the car, wouldn’t you know it began to rain.

I had a fun day I am glad I went up early so I could do a couple of things for myself. I was really tired when we came home and I slept 12 hours that night. Fortunately I didn’t have to be anywhere early in the morning and it was a delicious sleep.

Tags:Birthday, celebration, fun, good friends, Laughter, Queen, Queen's Official Birthday, Trooping the Colour
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Stubborn – Another Viewpoint

April 12, 2013

Since I wrote the post on stubborn, I have learned a few different ways of looking at it from other angles. My sister Candy sent me this after reading the post:

“Perhaps stubborn could also be strong with the ability to hang in there. That’s the positive flip side and that’s what I have seen you do in the last few years, especially with all you have gone through helping Mom and healing from the hip and making huge changes spiritually. There’s always a flip side to the negative. Julia Cameron has an exercise where you take the negative labels and turn them into their positive opposite. I don’t see you as a victim, but a victor. You are empowering yourself by changing your limited thinking for new ideas and new ways to look at old situations. And that takes a bit of stubbornness and strength to do that in spite of all the doubts and people who do not support you in the changes you are making.”

I heard someone on the radio yesterday illustrate stubborn as not listening to one’s inner self. She was working as a nurse in an Alzheimer’s facility and kept hearing “Go to Evergreen Hospital”. She kept putting it off until she broke her wrist rollerblading. She decided to go just for the heck of it, they hired her as an oncology nurse on the spot and were also willing to wait 6 weeks while her wrist healed. It is knowing something to do that will make a difference but putting it off for every reason that one can think up.

I know I need to clean out my office and not only organize it but also throw things away that no longer serve me. I know I have a pack rat mentality; I come by it honestly from my parents. I realize I keep waiting to have energy to do it, something that is taking a long time to arrive. The practical part of me says I need to just start small and the energy will come. The other part of me keeps saying how tired I am and I just want to sleep. The negative part of me seems to be the louder voice – it takes more practice to listen and pay attention to the positive voice.

I also need to clean out the house, now that my Mom no longer lives here, and make it our home with our furniture, etc. Talk about a daunting task! My husband and I keep saying we will do things after the kitchen is done. But I also realize we have to clear out the kitchen of everything in all the drawers, cabinets and pantry. My positive and negative voices are shouting at each other. Positive says most of it needs to go; the negative side says we might need it later so it is better to keep it. Yes, I know I have to decide which voice to listen to in spite of knowing both sides have some good reasons. I don’t want to expend the energy to reenforce more of the positive voice, though I know the good points of the negative voice.

I keep saying to myself and focusing on how tired I am and how little energy I have at this point. Certainly I know those negative messages keep piling up and definitely keep me feeling tired. It’s looonnnnnng past time to change my thoughts and focus to being ” wide awake, full of energy and ready to go”. I have noticed the sunshine helps lift me to have more positive thoughts and feel energy. Instead of just waiting for the energy to come, I know it is important to make different choices. Yet it feels as if it takes too much energy and effort to start it. So here I sit, knowing it is my choice to do what is required and not really doing anything about it.

The positive of all this is that I may actually be changing my thoughts and focus already, it may just be slower than I want it to be. I tend to want visible, measurable change rather than waiting for the gradual change to be noticeable. I am feeling that way about Orencia – I had my 3rd infusion on Tuesday but there doesn’t seem to be a discernible difference, just bits of well-being occasionally. Is it stubborn or just impatience? Seems this is still a developing process – it will be interesting to see what else shows up to show other kinds of stubborn.

Tags:Energy, focus, God, Julia Cameron, not listening, positive & negative voices, stubborn, thoughts, tired
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A Year Of Challenges

April 2, 2013

I have been thinking about a year ago at this time – I was still in rehab with a broken hip and waiting for the doc to tell me I could have full weight-bearing on my right leg. When Feb. 24th came around, I wasn’t sure I wanted to think about it as an anniversary, but what would I call it? Marking of a milestone or event? Still haven’t figured it out yet – fortunately the world won’t come to an end if I don’t have a name for it. The other weekend Eddie and I were on Pacific Highway South, we passed Stafford and his comment was “I don’t ever want to think about that place again!”.

I had a different feeling about it – I think of it fondly because of the people I met and who were so good to me as I began to recover. I think about my room on the first floor – all my own, not having to share with anyone. It had a view west and I saw Puget Sound and Vashon Island across the way; plus I saw the planes landing from the south and taking off to the south. There were lights on at night, plus I looked down on Pac Highway South and saw the traffic and the lights.

I was the first time in a long time the focus was on me, healing, therapy and just doing normal personal things. I was alone in my room – I had books and writing material but somehow I was too tired to touch any of them. I was tired all the time but still was able to laugh with the aides, the therapists, the staff in the dining room as well as the doc and nurses. I still had to deal with stuff for Mom and for Eddie as well – plus listen to him complain about dealing with Mom as if I had no idea what it was like. I did spend a lot of time in my room with the door closed, it was great.

One thing I learned was that when I ask for something, make sure it is very specific because I don’t know what will show up otherwise. I kept thinking and saying, I need a break – I see now I needed to say 2 weeks in a spa because I ended up with a broken hip. In some ways it was a bit of a spa but not in the usual way. I remember when I went up to therapy there was the smell of newly baked cookies – they had a jar on the front desk for anyone who wanted them. It was easy to recognize the peanut butter cookies, but not always other kinds.

What I remember most are the aides who were always there for me. Eleanor usually came in to help me get dressed – a tall, well endowed black woman not only chewed gum but also snapped it quite often. I thought that would drive me crazy faster than anything. Strangely it didn’t. Eleanor was like a mama bear, she took care of her charges and defends them , even going up to therapy to make sure they weren’t terrorizing her charges. She had a great sense of humor and we laughed a lot. I think she was from the South somewhere – for some reason Alabama comes to mind. One day she was helping me put on my bra and I said something about “the girls” were in all the way. apparently she had never heard that expression before and found it funny.

She didn’t suffer fools gladly but if I needed her, she was there for me. About three weeks after I arrived, I woke up with a terrible flare-up, I hurt all over and she came in and found me crying on the john. She was a very comforting mama bear and was so good to me. When I went upstairs to therapy, I was still having a miserable time, so Carol, my OT, put on hot packs for shoulders and dipped my hands in paraffin. It helped and as usual, by afternoon I was more comfortable. It wasn’t the only time I had trouble, it wasn’t until I was able to take the Methotrexate again for three weeks before I began to feel much better. They had stopped it so my incision would heal well. I don’t remember the doc telling me that, though I was pretty doped up in the hospital for a bit – not sure I remember very much of that part.

I remember one time when I was working with Sabrina, a PT, and I was having problems that day. I finally told her “I don’t mean to be uncooperative, it just hurts more than usual”. Her reply surprised me – “Uncooperative! You have never refused to do anything we have asked!”. They could tell when I was really having trouble and not just dogging it. There were times when I was there and someone would refuse to do things, kept saying it hurts. Or refuse to work with a particular therapist, though no one was sure why.

I am forever grateful to every one at Stafford, they made it possible for me to leave on my ow two feet and a wheely walker.

Tags:broken hip, Methotrexate, nurse's aides, Stafford, therapists, therapy
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It’s A Beautiful Day In The Neighborhood

March 31, 2013

How lovely to have some pretty sunny days with a cool north breeze – what a treat! I had an interesting week, seems as if everything needed to be done for others right now this minute. I was able to have an adjustment with my chiropractor, go to breakfast club, (I am now President Elect – in 6 months I will be President), have a lovely massage and enjoy yesterday with Eddie. Along the way I have been noticing the flowers and trees blooming. Our next door neighbors are back from Hawaii – they had great weather while it rained and was cloudy and sulking here. Strangely enough, no new mole mounds in our yard but Sheila, on their other side, has 2 or 3 fresh ones.

This is what I see out the front windows

The mountains are gorgeous, snow on them and quite far down too. Haven’t seen the big snow cone much, too many clouds over that way. Yesterday it was sunny and the mountains were clear – except by the foothills – the fog was sitting there like a collar of whipped cream. Usually the fog drifts over here and then we can’t see anything for a while. Funny, that dissipated before it was halfway across the Sound.

I need to go out and take some pictures of the camellias, daffodils and Delores’s flowering quince – it is just coming out. I have enjoyed seeing some azaleas blooming as well. I wanted to add some pictures to this post – I will use some pictures from both my sisters – thanks Ellen and Candy.

Thank You Ellen for the Easter Daffodils and the earlier crocus

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Thank You Candy for the apple blossoms

I noticed our Cherry trees are showing three or four clusters of blossoms – I doubt we will be getting any cherries from either of the trees before the birds. I actually though the cherry tree was dead, so it is a surprise to see buds. The red pear tree has an amazing number of buds, let’s hope the wind doesn’t blow the blossoms off before the pears are set.

I took these last year, those pears are delicious.

Now that I think of it, I do have a picture of the Big Snow Cone.

Now that is a mountain!

It has snow all year round and when you go up to Paradise in the spring, there are the most gorgeous wildflowers all around – with the mountain right there. And up at Tipsu Lake, you see the lake with the mountain behind it and wildflowers too – what more could one ask? Having the Olympics outside my front window, across Puget Sound, it is a wonderful place to be.

However, people have to remember, it rains a lot here and there are many cloudy days where it just sulks or else can’t make up its mind what to do. I love rain, so it is not a big deal to me, but people who like hot weather in the summer and snow in the winter can be very disappointed. A good friend of mine is a Yooper, born and brought up for most of her childhood on the Upper Peninsula of Michigan – she hates the constant rain, having hardly any snow and the mountains. She feels closed in; whereas I love to see them in all seasons. Some people even say there are no seasons here. You have to be a little odd to like living here.

I have shown you a bit of where I live and what I see, I’ve lived in the Midwest, South and Northeast – this is the only reasonable place for me.

Tags:Candy, cherry blossoms, Ellen, flowers, Mt. Rainier, nature, Olympic Mountains, Puget Sound
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Glitches Handled Well

March 27, 2013

I enjoyed last week a lot, I felt a feeling of well-being and energy – something I haven’t felt for a long time. Yesterday I went to see my rheumatologist before I went to have my second infusion. I did the first one two weeks ago so she wanted to know if I had noticed anything. When I said a feeling of well-being, she said that is often what people first notice. After seeing her, I went up stairs for my infusion – I asked for the corner suite, but it was occupied. When I was there two weeks ago, I had it and it was quite enjoyable to look out to the west and the south – didn’t see much of the harbor because of all the tall buildings in front. Looking to the south I could see the freeway and there weren’t buildings blocking it. Unfortunately, both times it wasn’t sunny, just cloudy and sulking.

However, all of the IV nurses at the Infusion Center were really nice, gentle when putting in the needle. It takes about 45 minutes to do the infusion, plus they get it started by doing a saline solution at the same time. They also offer drinks, soup, not sure what else. The first time I was really tired, so I had the chair reclined and I dozed during the treatment. I moved my elbow and that set off the alarm. This time she put it in very well and it was fine if I moved. I had forgotten my book the last time, so I remembered this time. It made the time go by quickly, plus I was really into the book and its story. I had apple juice, it tasted cool and really refreshing.

After the infusion, I had to go to Radiology to have hand and foot x-rays so there is a baseline to measure if there are changes as a result of Orencia. After I finished there, I went to see my Mom. I decided to stop and have something to eat and read for a bit. When I got there, I found her sitting in her chair sleeping. It really hit me, who was this old woman sitting in my Mom’s chair? She didn’t look like my Mom – I didn’t expect that. Then I found she is now using a walker – she has fluid buildup in her legs and it is really bothering her knees. She won’t keep her feet above her head to help reduce the fluid so she is more comfortable. Sucker punch two. When I saw her last Friday, she was sleepy, so I didn’t stay very long. She is doing well, but she mumbles a lot and I am not sure what she is saying. She is pleased to see me and glad I come to visit, though I don’t know how much she remembers. I thought I had come to terms with what is happening – NEWS FLASH – looks as though I haven’t. Now we are getting to the really hard part.

It has been that kind of week since I came home from the seminar. I came home and found Eddie had trouble with his computer – after a while I kept thinking things don’t quite add up. I ended up Monday morning doing a system restore – I had it written down from the last time because I wasn’t sure I would remember. I was able to restore it and it is fine, though it cost Eddie $300 and a lot of worry – it was a stupid virus scam. I figured a system restore should do it, though there was a part of me that was worried I would screw it up. So the worst that could happen was I screw it up royally and then call Larry to fix it. What a relief to have it restored and Eddie didn’t lose his Round Up and have to do it all over again. Hooray for me!

I went to see my chiropractor after that and as always enjoyed my adjustment – plus my neck and shoulder were much more comfortable. I was really looking forward to my afternoon nap to rest up from the weekend. I ended up spending an hour in bumper to bumper traffic on 167 – would have been better off going on I-5. Some days are like that. When I got home, there was a message on my voicemail – a small financial crisis that showed me just how little I can do on some of Mom’s affairs. Well, if nothing, it was informative. So I had to go to her bank and later out to the Post Office to take care of it. At times it felt as if things were falling around me, but when I was done, I felt I handled it competently – I also knew to ask for help from the Universe as well as people at the bank. I had a feeling of accomplishment, though those three hours felt rather tense at times.

The only thing that made my heart go pity pat was that when I checked Mom’s checking account, she had too much money. So I have to spend some to make sure she is below $2000 or she could be disqualified for Medicaid. We had to buy some things for ourselves at Bartell’s, so I bought some things she needs – still have more to spend. This is crazy, I have to make sure it isn’t over their limit when they check one minute after midnight on the first of the month.

I have a massage tomorrow morning and I am so looking forward to that!

Tags:finances, Health, Medicaid, Mother, rheumatoid arthritis, rheumatologist, System Restore
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More Than Just Coffee

March 24, 2013

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Monday I met Jon for coffee, I hadn’t seen him since he put together Direct TC, internet phone and my cell phone contract. I kind of had a feeling he had something he wanted something, so I decided to see what transpired. He is now doing a program that give free seminars on all kinds of financial ways to keep more of your own money. He said he would let me come and show my promotional marketing things and 2 -3 minutes to talk about what I do as well as my logo on the screen. Once again I found myself automatically thinking “Oh no, I can’t do that in such a short time”. But I caught myself and thought “Why not?”. I am working on coming from a place of yes, changing my whole childhood training. So I said I would. it was Saturday afternoon, not a time Eddie wants me somewhere else, but he encouraged me and I decided to do it.

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That definitely had my mind thinking faster than usual. I decided I would order chocolate bars from my supplier here in Washington. I called and they took care of it and I had them here by Friday. I just put a small label on the back – Presto, a self promo. I also decided to give it all to the Universe – what to say, what to do, what to take, how to set up the table – and ask for the words, attitude, physical actions, etc. and thanked the Universe for having already created the solutions.

What surprised me all week was how calm and relaxed I was about the whole thing. I wasn’t worrying about what to take, what if I forgot something, take the wrong things – blah, blah, blah. I had a handout I had written quite awhile, so I made some changes and printed them. I made notes, thought about what to take and went through my samples. I had my massage on Wednesday morning so I had all of Thursday to put things together. I had a really good day on Thursday, I felt relaxed and found I had a lot of energy.

What surprised me the most was finding myself putting my samples in the boxes I had bought to organize them in a more logical way. I have been frustrated a lot because I didn’t know where particular items are, so this will help at other times. That still leaves the tote bags filled downstairs, they need it as well. I also said I would bring something to eat – I knew I wanted to bring little brownies but not sure what else. Friday after I saw Mom, I picked up the brownies and a ring cake.

Thursday was a really good day and I enjoyed it, Friday wasn’t quite as energetic but still was a really good day. I will admit to feeling a nervous Saturday morning as I put everything together and loaded the car. Today is not very energetic, but that’s perfectly fine. I did the seminar without stressing myself out or worrying and I prefer to do it that way. I must be trusting the Universe a lot more than I have in the past.

Saturday turned out to be sunny, a real bonus for us lately. Mostly it is bits of sun between large bouts of rain, snow and hail. Friday was quite an interesting day – Eddie called early in the morning to say he has 3″ of snow at the Future of Flight. Down here we had a hail storm and we keep getting showers of hard rain. This is Spring? Even so, the flowers are blooming, even the camellias.

There wasn’t a big crowd, probably about 20 to 25. I felt the time crunch on my 2 – 3 minutes and I don’t know if I really said things that gave them a clue to what I do. What was interesting was toward the end, they saw the USB drives and loved the one that is shaped like a credit card. So this was definitely a learning experience, if I do it again, I will probably talk about business cards and how to stand out from just pasteboard cards. I met several people who were really interested in the business card USB and one guy said he was interested in the chocolate. I don’t have his business card, so I don’t know if he will contact me. Or he might not have liked the chocolate bar. We’ll see.

I spent a lot of time listening to what the four experts had to say about investing in silver, in real estate, having a 508 non-profit and how to leverage your assets to make money. The 508 non-profit interested me, I’s like to know more about that. The others I couldn’t quite grasp how it all worked – I couldn’t picture it for that “I know that I know” understanding. A lot of material in 2 to 3 hours. I noticed the seminar went mostly non-stop, so people who had to us the facilities or take some thing to eat just got up and did it. I really wasn’t the distraction it usually is, I liked that. It started at 1:30 and they had an hour or so afterwards for people to talk to the presenters and also something to eat. It was nearly 7 when I got home – Eddie had done the laundry and read in the afternoon.

I will call or email the people I met and gave me business cards and see what happens.

Tags:financial seminar, promotional items, trust, trusting the Universe, yes instead of no
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Phooey To The Calendar, It’s Spring!

March 17, 2013

We have had some sunshine every once in a while, sometimes for the whole day. Plus the temperatures have been mild, up into the 50’s a lot. I noticed the first flowers started blooming around the first of March – they decided to start blooming even though the official start of Spring isn’t until March 20th. I have seen camellias, rhodos, even an azalea yesterday all in bloom. The cherry trees with lacy flowers and even some of the puffy cherry trees are blooming. I was going home from visiting Mom on Friday and a whole line of cherry trees were starting to bloom.

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The daffodils are starting to bloom in the yard and also next door. I think it depends on how protected from the cold wind plants are as to how far along they are. The forsythia is usually the first to come out, they are now slowly emerging. I enjoy Spring as each plant begins to grow leaves and then blossom while others put out blossoms first, then leaves. I am wondering how many bulbs are left after the big clean up.

I remember a quote somewhere that really makes my heart glow – The Earth laughs in flowers.

Oh dear, Eddie can’t find Bunny now that he has made the bed, I need to find her.

How she wandered into the office I don’t know, the last time I saw her was on my pillow. I have been sleeping with her a lot, so very comforting and sweet. I think her name is actually Sweet Pea since I find myself calling her that without realizing it. all is well now.

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Mom’s is in blue and blue feathered hat – you get the idea.

I went to see Mom on Friday, she had had a visitor the day before – it was Luzma bearing gifts. She brought her a beautiful bear dressed in a lovely gown and a hat with feathers. It is on Mom’s dresser. She also brought flowers – little dark pink roses – small box of chocolates and a packet of cookies. Apparently she spent quite a lot of time with her, though Mom doesn’t remember it. I have to remind myself not ask about things that happened before the present moment, her short-term memory is gone. Then she thinks she missed out on something.

My two packets of cookies were anticlimactic, I found some sugar-free chocolate chunk for Jan and also brought sugar cookies with green frosting and shaped sprinkles on top for St. Patrick’s day. They all enjoyed them and I was glad. I’m learning not to bring something for the house all the time or they will expect it, once a month is better. This came from Kathy who is more knowledgeable than I am. I appreciate her advice and am so glad she came with me to find a home for Mom.

The two new residents are Everett, he is about 86 and in a wheelchair. He doesn’t seem to be chatty, maybe when I know him better – he certainly scarfed up the cookies in a hurry. Mom gave him hers, so I gave her another one and said it is for her to eat, not give away. I don’t remember the woman’s name, she too is in a wheelchair and is about to turn 102 – looks as though Mom isn’t the oldest any more.

Mom still asks about her mother, her grandmother, even Aunt Clara. I just tell her they are watching over her and preparing a place for her on the other side. Also that when the time comes, there will be guides to help her through the transition, she won’t have to do it herself. Sometimes she says she is glad I told her that. This time she said she feels safe when she is sitting with Jan, but when she is alone she is scared. I asked her what scares her and she is scared what to do if something happens. I tried to reassure her that everyone in the house is there for her and I am only a phone call away. She doesn’t think she knows how to use the phone, so I said just ask some in the house – I will be there in 20 minutes. I hope that reassured her, even for 5 minutes. That’s a first.

Thursday was a fun day, I had my massage in the morning with Debye and then went to lunch with Kathie Brodie at Queen Mary Tea Room. We haven’t seen each other for quite a while, she is starting a new business and I have already written many words about I have been doing. We have so much in common and it turns out it is a two-way street for us – I learn so much from her and she learns a lot from me. She was talking about finally understanding one of her life lessons, though still hasn’t quite learned because it keeps coming in different ways so she doesn’t see it coming. Light bulb moment for me! How amazing that over the years we have both been learning a lot of the same things – talking to her helps put into words what I am thinking and feeling.

We had a lovely lunch and of course a pot of tea. We both tried different ones, though I love their Creamy Earl Grey. They gave us a taste of Queen’s Afternoon Tea – I loved it! Kathie is a big tea drinker and enjoys trying new one. there is a tea shop in Edmonds she goes to try different teas. I had an email from her yesterday – she enjoyed the outing with me but forgot it was caffeine and she finally figured out why she couldn’t get to sleep the night before.

It’s been a delightful week.

Tags:Cherry blossom, cookies, dementia, March, Mom, short term memory, Spring, St. Patrick's Day, Tree
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Highlights From This Week

March 10, 2013

It is now the beginning of a new week and as I look back on last week, my first thought was that nothing earthshaking happened. I have been spending my time lately not doing a whole lot, I just want to sleep and work out this fatigue until I finally reach the last layer. However, as I was in the shower this morning, I started thinking about a couple of things that happened.

Friday was an eventful day, I went to pick up Mom at 9:15 so both of us could have haircuts. I know it was a bit early for her, but she was having breakfast when I arrived. Apparently Judy didn’t tell she was going to have a haircut, that must have been why she said Mom aaas moody. Mom couldn’t understand why she had to get up early, but the day actually worked out fine. We had a lovely sunny day, it was such a treat to see and feel the sun again.

We went to see Michelle and I had the first haircut. I asked Michelle to cut mine a little shorter on the top – so it is shorter than it has ever been. I also wanted Michelle to cut Mom’s hair shorter in the back because last time she wanted it longer – it is harder to fix for Judy and to be honest, she has had that neglected look. She is definitely not neglected. Her silver hair was beautiful and she agreed it felt good to have it cut.

As I was writing the check, my cell rang – it was Kathy, she was at Fred Meyer and wondered what I was doing. I told I had Mom with me and she suggested meeting us there to say Hello. I told Mom but she didn’t really know who I meant – I knew she would recognize her when she saw Kathy. Kathy took care of Mom a lot before she went into the Elderplace program, they developed quite a bond. Mom was delighted to see her for a few minutes.

I took her back to the house, this she wasn’t disappointed it wasn’t here. I had promised her a cheeseburger for lunch; I left to pick up Whopper Jrs and some fries – I decided to get her slice of apple pie because it is her favorite. We ate lunch together and then I left to relax for the afternoon.

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Later in the afternoon I had a call from my rheumologist’s office, Jennifer said she checked my insurance and they will cover Orencia. She says I have amazing coverage for my Medicare supplement – so glad I went with Vickie and State Farm! I have an appointment to start it at 1 on Tuesday – I’ll visit Mom in the morning. It is an infusion for about 45 minutes – I figure it may take a little longer to get things set up the first time. Then I have an appointment with my rheumatologist at 10, then go up to the Infusion Room after for the next one. It will be another 2 weeks for the 3rd one and then it will be every 4 weeks. At the moment I am not scared nervous or apprehensive, more curious than anything else. I figure to take it as it comes and see what happens. I am also not excited and having high expectations either – working on keeping neutral and no emotion.

Also, there are two new people at Mom’s house – John with the cat left and Jennifer went to hospital and then to a nursing home close to her sister. I have seen Mr. Byrd but not spoken to him because he is usually asleep in his chair. The new woman is in a wheel chair and although I smiled and waved to her, she didn’t really respond. She too is in a wheel chair. As time goes by it will be interesting to get to know them.

I have been asked to join the neighborhood bridge group as a permanent member. I said I would and we are playing on Monday at Claire’s. That means one of these days I will have it here – I’d like to have the new kitchen and possibly the upstairs painted, plus our own furniture.

We have been slowly cleaning out, though if you saw the house right now, it doesn’t look that way. I have the office to clean out and organize as well as going through papers and things of Mom’s. I have been putting it off because it feels awkward and if she knew she would be upset. Mostly it has been a bit here, a bit there, mostly in the kitchen and a little in the desk. It has been strange going through some things and deciding what to keep and what isn’t necessary any more. I have that pack rat mentality that I might need it some day.

I definitely did things for myself – I saw Dr. Cheryl my chiropractor on Monday morning and had my massage with Debye on Thursday. A lot of the time I didn’t feel like doing anything, so I just took it easy and relaxed. Little by little there are small bits of energy and look forward to bursts and a lot of energy again.

I am interested in what you have to say, I definitely want to know.

Tags:Debye, Dr. Cheryl, haircuts, infusion, Mom, Orencia
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Woo Woo, Goofballs and Hocus Pocus Water

February 24, 2013

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In the past few years I have been looking into Alternative Medicine since I am not all that happy with traditional medicine. I am tired of pills, blood tests, and all of that – certainly isn’t doing good things to my body. I am working on what the root cause of my experience is and what in my thought patterns, emotions, energy, etc. – what people might call woo-woo, airy fairy or touchy feel stuff. Since it is out of the mainstream, most people think it is a lot of baloney. However, I am finding more and more that it is helping me and it is a community I feel more at home.

I have often felt out-of-place and uncomfortable in the business world where cold calls, networking and all that “Life is real, Life is earnest” competitive stuff. I decided to have fun with my promotional marketing business and see how that works. Though I have found in the last two years I haven’t been working with my business because of Mom and taking care of her affairs, a broken hip and lately with finding an adult family home, then applying for Medicaid and then 5 weeks of flu.

So in between taking care of all those things, I have had some regular clients still ordering and I have done a lot of work on myself. I have a couple of immediate goals, one is to get my energy back and continue working on my healing and spiritual awareness. I also am at a crossroads in my life – do I want to continue promotional marketing or go with a specific direction? I also have some things I want to do that are my own, this is now the time for me to do it.

Part of woo woo is angel cards, oracle cards or tarot cards. I have been receiving Monday morning Soul Card Readings – all of them are spot on about going in my own direction. To have courage, stand up for myself, empowerment, generosity, even one about writing. I am listening more to my intuition – I actually have it after all – and beginning to trust it. This is one of the cards that came from Doreen Virtue’s Ascended Masters deck, the other is from Denise Linn’s Gateway Oracle Guidebook:

Yesterday when I was having my massage, Debye was working on the back of my left hip and suddenly the words “stuck energy” came up. Later I told her about it and she said she felt the release of energy when she was working there. To some that just touchy feel stuff and weird or oddball – it really isn’t anything. It felt right to me.

I am married to a Point A to Point B guy – the straightest path between 2 points. I am a Scenic Route. This applies to traveling in the car as well as how we talk or do things. I don’t say much to him about what I am learning and experiencing because he thinks it’s goofball stuff. We are each entitled to our own opinions, his interests are aviation, car and heavy-duty trucks and their parts, what’s going on in the world and at home – he doesn’t understand my stuff. We always used to say “You don’t have to be crazy to live in our family, but it helps”.

One thing I learned from Debye was asking Dr Lang – an ascended master – to put his “something something” in a glass of water by my bed at night. In the morning, I would drink it. He saw me doing this for quite a while and finally asked what was I doing? Was it hocus pocus water? Rather than explain, I told him “Yes, it is.” I think there are times when he doesn’t quite know what to make of me, what I think and what I do. I found a really cool stemmed glass at Good Will for my hocus pocus water.

I would have had this post done on Friday but I have been looking through the Soul Card Monday readings looking for certain cards that came up. Then I spent a lot of time trying to get them on the same line, but I keep forgetting that what I see as I write is wider than the actual blog. Hence photos have a tendency to not fit it. I am still getting the hang of how to put things in and to make it look good. I also spent a long time looking for something to illustrate woo woo or goofball – mostly what I found for woo woo was a drink that had booze in it, not quite what I had in mind. Well, that’s the thing about writing a blog, sometimes everything really clicks and other times it gets a bit cattywampus. This week is cattywampus. Enjoy!

Tags:Alternative medicine, Ascended master, Energy, Health, Hocus Pocus, Oracle cards, Scenic Route, Tarot
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