After a long down, it is feels so good to have some interest and energy for a change. This last week has been unusual, but a lot has been accomplished. We can see a difference as well. I have been able to start things moving to clear some things out of the house. Brigh came by Thursday afternoon to take furniture on consignment – we’ll see how it works. He as a friend who is interested in some things as well, so that should help empty things out a bit. As a matter of fact, we now have a big empty space in the living room so we can have our new dining set delivered – it will seem odd to have 2 tables and chairs but that won’t last too long.
We have been finding homes for things – I feel as if I am adopting out kittens. Eddie is definitely happy to see the empty space. He dropped off several bags of books to open up some space as well. There is still a long way to go, but there is definitely progress. I am finding I have no problem saying goodbye to things, I am not emotionally attached to them as much. Maybe because I know the things have homes to go to and will be appreciated. If we had an estate sale, we would lose money on it for all the effort and work it would take.
After 2 or 3 days of being tired physically, I was mentally tired on Friday. I went in for my One to One to work on my podcasts. We at least have it showing up on its but not playing – I was there with Rhys for 2 hours and at the moment we are at a standstill. I need to finish putting the podcasts on the blog so they can at least be heard there – until I can find a platform to store the mp3s, it won’t be on iTunes for a while. If you check out findingthegifts.wordpress.com you can hear the ones I have finished. They are not in order, so they skip around on dates. I plan to have them in order, 1st show to last. I also need to do a little work on the site itself, not all that pleased with the theme for it.
Wednesday I went to Breakfast Club and then met Char for an outing at U Village. We have been talking about it, I am the one who couldn’t get her act together. Then I didn’t sleep well the night before, so I was draggy and not the best company. Char and I are such good and long time friends that we are glad to spend time together no matter what is happening. We both understand each other and our situations – sometimes it me, sometimes it’s her and sometimes both of us. Usually we are both doing well and it works out really well. Char is so good for me and I am so glad we had our outing.
I decided it was time to set a date for Mom’s Celebration of Life open house – it is going to be on June 14th from 1 – 4 p.m. It’s a Sunday and I hope we will be able to paint in time for it. There will be a cake from Robbie and mostly finger foods to make it easier for people. I am hoping for a sunny day so we can use the yard and the back porch. Other than that, I haven’t planned anything else. I will invite the neighbors, the domino ladies, my Breakfast Group who knew Mom – not sure who else is left.
The oddest thing is happening, I have hot flashes again. Why is a mystery. I can deal with them during the day, but the ones at night make it hard for me to sleep well. Last night I woke up several times with them, not conducive to a good night’s rest. I’m 68 for Heaven’s sake – will this happen every few years? Give me a break!
I’m not the only feeling a little screwy – the plants and flowers seem to be confused. The early bloomers are later and the later ones flowered early. The camellias are fully in bloom and dropping flowers all over. Jorge and his crew came on Friday and did the yard – next thing you know, the camellias dropped more on the lawn. The blueberries are beginning to bloom and so it the red pear tree – the other pear and the apple tree are just showing buds. It is beautiful to see all the flowers blooming – we have had rain and wind, so I hope we don’t lose blossoms that will produce fruit.
As long I work on keeping calm, relaxed and at peace with things feel so mixed up, I will be fine. This may be the new normal, whatever normal is – just roll with the punches and be flexible.
Gift of RA 