I seem to spend more time reading and commenting on other people’s blogs than I do writing my own. However, I have found some wonderful blogs and delightful people behind them. I so appreciate them and the 41 Followers I have now. WOW! To me that is so cool and amazing. When I comment on other blogs, I learn about other people and check them out. I have also had people Like my posts and that is how I find them. What a fascinating place the world of blogs has been.
When I first started, I wondered if anyone would be interested in reading about RA. There were people who also were interested in my Mom’s dementia, plus my every day subjects as well as metaphysical ones. I am so pleased to have 41 Followers, I so appreciate each and every one of them, as well as all the ones who have liked by blog posts. Some are in very interesting places and I have learned a lot about things and places I didn’t know anything about. When there are pictures posted, it really brings it home to me. Thank You all, it means the world to me.
It has also helped me cope with things, and when I write about dementia, I receive comments that help, support and uplift me. As all the people who dealt with know, it is not easy and having people who have been through it say they understand, I know they do. That helps so much as well. There are so many lovely people out there.
I am following blogs as well, some subjects I have no knowledge or experience with it. But although the situation is different, I have come to think over the years that there are some basic things we all share in living with and through a difficult situation. There is something therapeutic about writing down what is happening as well as thoughts and feelings. I find it helps clear it out for a while and I can see more objectively. A good cry also helps as well as throwing a tantrum. It is hard for me to throw a tantrum, I don’t have any experience because my parents were not willing to allow tantrums. Even a good cry is harder than it used to be – for some reason I know feel there is someone standing next to me watching their watch. It is as if there is a time limit and if I don’t get on the ball and start crying, time will be up for me. Where this came from I have no idea, but it does put a damper on things.
Even better, publishing a post that is real, in many ways helps other people. I’ve learned since my speaker days at the Connecticut Chapter of the Arthritis Foundation that I didn’t often know when I gave the basic facts (along with my own stories) who was being helped. Sometimes I would have someone come up and tell me and that was always gratifying. I often thought, it isn’t necessary to always know when I helped, otherwise I might get a swelled head ( childhood program) and my attitude would change and be all about me. Then whatever it was that was working, wouldn’t any more. I liked getting the feedback, I knew the more I just put it in the hands of the Universe and I just showed up and got out of the way, the message would go to who needed it. I do my best to go on about my business and trust I am helping others.
There are days when I want to write a post and can’t think of anything. Other days I have several ideas and don’t have time to write any of them down. Or if I written them down, when I go back to it, I can’t remember why I wrote it in the first place. Usually I can’t find the list because I have “put it away safely so I wouldn’t lose it”. There is a lot of that going around. I remember one day I was somewhere and I thought of questions to ask myself – I was smart enough to put it in the back of my pocket calendar. I have looked at it several times and wondered if anyone would really care. So I have it and and I’m still undecided.
I still find myself comparing my blog to others and feel it is lacking (more childhood programs), the other blogs are better. I am now better at catching myself when that happens, though some still slip by me. It seems it has taken a long time for me to be aware – living in this time period there are so many more people, classes, etc. to help with all of it. So much to learn, so much to explore.
So I want to be sure those of you who read, like and follow my blog know how much I appreciate all of you and thank you for a lovely and delightful compliment.
Gift of RA 