I have been debating whether to publish this or not – there has certainly been something pushing me to write it out, that’s for sure. Does anyone really want to read about the past three days and the turmoil I have been feeling? I decided to start with Monday because that was about the start of it and it has been uncomfortable up until today (Wednesday). Not sure if there is a happy ending or just an ending.
We have been having sunny warm weather in the 80’s and Monday was to be the warmest day. My calendar showed a free day so I decided this was going to be MY day, to do or not do whatever I felt like doing. I checked my Monday Morning Soul Card Reading and found this:
First Card is from Doreen Virtue’s Ascended Masters Oracle Cards Guidebook:
Freedom: Hina
“This card signifies that your Soul is crying for more freedom, especially as it involves your life purpose. Walk away from restrictions and be free! Perhaps it’s time to take a break so that you can think clearly about your desires and available options.
Additional meanings: It’s time to leave a situation that you have outgrown. Allow the Universe to support you while you make desired life changes.”
Soul Guidance:
Are you ready to break free? Is it time to leave a certain situation? Why wait?
Feeling fear means you’re on the right path. Just don’t let fear to stop you if your heart guides you to take a leap.
Then I read the second one and it too was so fitting for me – it always amazing at how apt the cards are for me.
Second Card is from Denise Linn’s Gateway Oracle Cards Guidebook:
Letting Go: I surrender joyously to the ebbing and flowing of life.
“Surrender. Relinquish control and allow Spirit to take over. You don’t need to do everything yourself. All is well. It is time to release any limiting patterns, emotional attachments, or inner and outer clutter. Surrendering doesn’t mean you’re yielding to a force outside of yourself. It means you’re allowing your Soul to take over.”
Soul Guidance:
What area of your life needs letting go?
This week your focus is letting go and creating the freedom to pursue the longing of your Soul.
What baby step can you take?
Click here to read: Letting go is…
Unfortunately it was not to be – Eddie got another Dept. of Justice virus demanding $300 within 48 and they would unlock his computer. If not, he would be prosecuted. No doubt a lot of other people have had this come up for them. this time we knew it was a scam, but I couldn’t get it to start in Safe Mode so I could do a system restore. I called Larry and he said it would be very expensive to fix it, though he sent me a site that has ways to do it. Unfortunately they all seem to have it go into Safe Mode – something I couldn’t get to.
So I called Jon Palms from Breakfast Club, he is the computer guy in our club at the moment and others have been pleased with his work. So I called him and when he wasn’t able to help me over the phone, he came over to fix it. It took awhile but he found several viruses and took them all off as well as the DOJ one. then ran a deep scan which found 2 items to be removed. Now it is working properly. There is always a chance it will happen again so now Eddie is willing to look at a Mac laptop since there are fewer problems with viruses. He thinks they are too expensive, but I reminded him how much money we have spent fixing all the problems he has had with it.
By the time Jon left, it was almost 2 – there went my day to myself. It really began to bug me because this happens quite often, it is my life that is put on hold, postponed or cancelled because Eddie or Mom needs something done. I am fed up with it. I said it to Eddie when he called the last time, he told me he owes me big time – you bet your a** you do!
I was upset about it and in many ways fell into feeling sorry for myself and thinking of myself as a victim. It certainly was a familiar feeling, I have spent a lot of my life that way. After awhile, I began to think “I have been down this road so many times before but didn’t do anything about it” I then heard my higher self speaking, asking what I am going to do, this day has been a wake up call to begin doing what I enjoy, what I want learn and explore. I was still feeling a bit upset and didn’t say much that evening.
Tags: Ascended Masters Oracle Cards: 44-Card Deck and guidebook, card reading, DOJ virus, Doreen Virtue, Eddie, Letting Go, Mac, New Age, Safe mode
Gift of RA 
May 9, 2013 at 5:20 am |
A friend of mine says, “It’s all sent to try ya.” Upon reflection, that’s probably all that can be said.
By the way pesky viruses and such are always a fact of life. I have found this product, malwarebytes anti-malware to be somewhat useful in keeping some of the wolves at bay:
http://www.malwarebytes.org/lp/malware_lp_form/
The link is to the free version and I find that running it every 4 to 6 weeks keeps the malware and spyware at a minimum.
I’ve also switched to microsoft security essentials as my virus scanner of choice. It, too, is free.
http://windows.microsoft.com/en-CA/windows/security-essentials-download
May 9, 2013 at 8:32 am |
Thank You Maurice. Last night we out and bought a Mac Book – I have had no trouble with my iMac and we have spent too much money on that Dell. Actually, Jon had that malware program running while fixed the computer. Know anyone who would like to buy a Dell laptop?
May 9, 2013 at 8:40 am
LOL! The problem is that PC prices are so low right now the resale value is miniscule. Right now a brand new Dell inspiron laptop can be had for less than $400! That’s less than an iPad!
May 9, 2013 at 9:03 am
If I don’t ask, I won’t find out. That’s about what I was thinking, I may give it to my pc guy. We’ll see what happens.
May 13, 2013 at 7:59 am |
Hi! I’m new to your blog. I have Lupus but have a mother and brother with RA. I am also finding my path in spirituality and have been led to many of Doreen Virtue’s teachings as of lately. I’m sorry you were having a tough day and hope you love your new Mac book. I’ve been wanting one myself. Ihear they’re great. Have a wonderful day full of love and light. -Mia 🙂
May 13, 2013 at 11:13 am |
Thank you so much for following my blog and you wonderful comments. I think people with chronic illness, no matter what it is, often experience many of the same type of things. I look forward to looking at your site – I like your premise a lot.
May 13, 2013 at 12:26 pm
Thank you as well! I agree that we have many similar experiences with these autoimmune issues. 🙂
May 13, 2013 at 8:46 pm
I have tended to think – why would anyone be interested in what I have to say? However, as I have read comments and blogs, plus people following my blog, I have come to believe I do have something to offer, I may not always know what it is, but as long as it helps someone, it is valuable. Even better, I get to know about other blogs, other people and I learn so much from them. Each of us has something valuable to say and this is my voice, my way of doing it.