Since I promised there would be no whingeing, I will just say that the last couple of days have been a try low point for me – not quite sure what is going on. I do know the side effects of the drug in the study really wiped me out and I am no longer taking the drug. Still another exit interview next week before I am done. The frustrating part was I noticed improvement in some things and they told me Wednesday my Sed rate had been going down. Must not be right for me.
I called my friend Carol today to see if she could meet me for lunch, think goodness she was. Turns out she was having a crappy day and meeting for lunch got both of us out of our jammies. I could have stayed at home, maybe had a good cry, but I didn’t want to do that – the thought of it made me feel low. So lunch with Carol was fun and we both feel better.
Something else to make one smile – cats. I ran across this on the web somewhere that shows cats just at the optimum moment when a camera was around. Some are funny, some are amazing and cats always make me smile.
This one looks as if he had been shot out of a cannon!
Does he realize he is going in?
Play time is different for everyone. Bet he is sure it’s a home run!
Nackered by a computer mouse!
There are no strings or devices – it’s pure magic.
One last one – who is more surprised!
I knew the cats would help me smile and laugh. I would rather show these than write about all my feelings of “oh-poor-me-osis” today. My massage therapist just lost her mother on Wednesday – she died of cancer. It was expected but I think it may still have been a shock when it happened. I called her today to let her know I am sending her very special Lee hugs and anytime she needs one, it will be there for her.
Last night when I went to be, I decided to feel the feelings, be willing to accept that was how I felt in the moment and then let it go. I also asked for an attitude overhaul. The one thing that surprised me yesterday afternoon when this depression hit – I was thinking all these negative thoughts. Then I stopped myself and knew it wasn’t true. Yes, it was how I felt at that moment, but it isn’t the truth of my life or myself – that is new for me.
Enjoy the cats!
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