Things are going better, though I did overdo when I did the last post because it felt good to be able to work on the computer. So I paid for it and now am much more cautious about the computer. Definitely means not much has happened with my business, my journaling, and any of the projects I had been working on – definitely puts a crimp in things. However, it has also made me stop to think about my life and what I want – a time for meditation, re-evaluating and taking care of myself. I haven’t put myself first much, too much early “somebody else’s training” from childhood that said to take care of everyone else and if anything is left over, I can take care of me. A little harder at 64 but I am ready to work on it and perfect it since I know if I am filled up and overflowing, I can give the overflow to others.
My massage therapist is away for 3 weeks, so I have been wondering how I can keep from stuffing the emotions and adding to the junk already stuck in my shoulders. What I have come up with is to just breathe, especially when the stressful situations come. I just think in terms of “Breathe in love, Breathe out negativity” for however long I need to do it and by, George, it seems to work. Also to be grounded and one way is to play in a mud puddle, connecting with Mother Earth. Now it has been a long time since I played in a puddle and at first, I was deciding where I could create one and all that overthinking. I ended up digging in the corner of the small bed under the water faucet – I could turn on the tap and not have to carry water. I had trouble digging the weeds and almost gave up, but I am glad I didn’t It was a beautiful sunny 75 degree day – the first since last September. So I rolled up my pant legs and paddle in my puddle for a bit – hard to stand too long, so I need to get a chair to sit and have fun for longer.
While I was creating my puddle, my Mom asked what I was doing, so I told her and invited her to play with me. She wasn’t quite ready to that. That was fine, I am glad I asked her. When my husband came home, he asked who had been digging in the garden. he thought it was Mom because she is the gardener, but I said “No, not Mom.” So he asked who and I said it was me. Then it was why, so I told him to connect with Mother Earth. Some silence and then “Okay”. I don’t think he was quite sure about the whole thing. Well, that was all right too. Unfortunately we went back into Junuary again and it hasn’t been nice weather until this weekend. We might actually begin to have summer now – we aren’t counting on it since it has been such a weird spring. Right now most of the country is sweltering and we have finally just beginning to stop wearing winter clothes.
After writing this, I am doing fine, but there is in the back of my mind just how much longer should I write and not mess up my shoulder. I am not stressing so much that my business is at a stand still, I feel there is a transition coming and I need this time to let it emerge on its own without forcing it. If someone wants to do a promotion with imprinted items, I will definitely be available to do it.
I wish all of you the best of health and willingness to put yourself first – you deserve it!
Gift of RA 
July 5, 2011 at 4:27 pm |
Hi Lee, I am Meilee Anderson’s mom. I’ve been reading your blog and I like your attitude and the way you are looking for the gift in RA rather than letting the pain twist your spirit! I’ve started a blog too, more as a marketing tool for my books, but I am willing to discuss whatever because I included the fact that I do live with MS as a prominent feature of life. I have taken a similar approach. Life is different, not ruined!
When I saw your last name I thought Armenian or Lithuanean, and then happy to discover that your hubby is Armenian–don’t think I spelled it correctly.
Love the fact that you made mud to splash in. You talked about being grounded. I wondered if you read the book “Earthing,” about being grounded quite literally! It came to us as a freeby but very intriguing. He says it really helps put out the fire of inflammation, but I haven’t ordered the gizmo yet. I’d like someone else to try it, but my hubby hasn’t been sleeping well so maybe we will get it for him, then see if it works for me!
Nice to make your acquaintence. I hope we can actually meet the next time we come to Seattle. Blessings, Carol Brown
July 6, 2011 at 12:30 pm |
Hello Carol, I am delighted to hear from you. I thoroughly enjoy being with Meilee and she is a hit with my other half. Yes, he is Armenian, born and brought up in Jerusalem – makes life very interesting.
Thank You for your lovely comments, it helps me to know that what I am dealing with can actually be a benefit to other people. That is the whole point of the exercise.
Tell me more about the grounding you mentioned, I don’t know anything about that.
July 5, 2011 at 4:30 pm |
Oh, pooh! I forgot to leave my blog address: http://connectwithcarolbrown.blogspot.com/
July 6, 2011 at 12:41 pm |
Wow, another HSP! I checked out your blog and that is sooooo cool. Elaine Aaron and Jenna Avery are the 2 I know about, now I can add you as someone I can learn from as well.