i started thinking that i could write a bit each day and then publish the post all together since i can only write a certain amount at a time. we’ll see how it goes.
monday
not one of my better days on sunday – a very low point. guess it was a poor-me-isis day. i was feeling down, very limited and fed up with being stuck at home. when i am home, i can find all kinds of things to do, at the moment that isn’t the case. everything is disorganized and it is bugging me, yet i have to watch what i do until my arm is healed. after 46 years eddie still hasn’t quite figured out what to do when i am so low. i asked for an attitude overhaul into positive territory – it’s better but i know i have to conscienciouly choose positive. thank goodness i am getting better at that.
we have had some miserable air lately because of the forrest fires – i haven’t seen the mountains in a while. it is smoky, hazy and yucky, which in turn makes the sunshine more uncomfortable. i haven’t been out since saturday and i think it is time for me to see if i can get a little exercise by walking up and down the sidewalk.
it felt so good yesterday afternoon to have a shower and wash my hair – i’m not quite at a point i can do it myself yet. eddie has been so great at helping me do simple things and still work and do all that he does. i am blessed to have such a wonderful husband.
tuesday
a really crappy night, my shoulder ached and hurt so much i wasn’t able to go to sleep except in fits and starts. i was surprised i didn’t spend the night in the living room chair, but stayed in bed. around 5 when eddie left for work, i was finally able to sleep for 3 or 4 hours. i had only an hour’s liedown this afternoon, i am hoping to sleep better tonight.
i finally was able to put eddie’s kaplanian report on the blog this morning – took some doing with rests several times to make sure i don’t mess up my shoulder. i feel as if i have accomplished something rather than being like a bump on a log.
it feels as if it is not quite so smoky, though i can’t see the mountains ever though it is sunny. the sun doesn’t look quite so hazy today, i really need to put some slacks on and go walk down the sidewalk in the fresh air. i have been cooped up in the house too much.
i have had several orders come up, so i have asked the owner of cmti to help with them. one of them is for an online store, new territory for me. i am hoping pete will have a 3 way conference call with the client to answer questions and explain how it works – i don’t really have a clue. should be interesting to see how it unfolds.
wednesday
a really good night’s sleep at last. felt so good. I find the not sleeping really messes me up. today is doc day again – we both are seeing our primary care doc. he wanted to see me in two weeks – i am doing better now that when I saw him 2 weeks ago. he must think i am doing well because he wants to see me in 4 weeks. eddie has the stuffy, runny nose and sneezing that everyone has because of the weather. i sneeze and cough – some days are better than others. nothing he can do and said eddie could take over the counter stuff. not something eddie wants to do.
after the doc, we went down to have coffee – things seem to tire me out easily. i didn’t plan to go into the grocery store, but i realized i needed to walk a bit. I have been inside the house most of the time – hard to get my slacks on and go outside and walk up and down the sidewalk.
thursday
i had gotten a call from dave gagley on tuesday to see how i am. we met with him today to help with the accident and see what my options are and how to handle things that come up. I feel better knowing i have him on my side. the other insurance company isn’t all that cooperative, so we’ll see what develops. it was also a time for eddie to let off some steam and talk about what is bothering him.
the biggest thing is whether or not i want to do the joint replacement when the bone has healed. that will be very costly but more to the point – i will ave to go off my meds for 2 months and then the recovery period. if i don’t, i will have a dicky shoulder for life. i was off my meds when i broke the hip and ended up with a huge flare-up, hate to think what 2 months would be.
friday
pete had a call with the woman who wants an online store – but she wants to do individual things – one shirt here, a pin there. it’s not what we do. so that is the end of that.
this is getting a biting, so i will publish it and start another one.
Gift of RA 
August 28, 2015 at 10:27 pm |
Hi Liz, I’m sorry about that bad night you had, but glad you finally got a good night’s sleep–which is what I need right now, after having been out at the fairgrounds for several hours today. I judged a sewing contest (delightful young girl) and also walked around some. More than I’m used to, so my hip was aching by the time I got to the car. Better now.
You know that whatever decision you make about your shoulder, I will support you. Yes, i’d love for you to have some properly-working joints again, but you have to decide if it’s worth going off your RA meds for a while.
Take care. love, Char
August 29, 2015 at 9:46 am |
bad nights have been less and less, there were so many in the beginning. i spent a lot of time sitting in the chair and not being able to go to sleep until 3 or 4 in the morning. i have found a couple of things to do that help with the pain when i go to bed, so i am doing better.