I haven’t posted much lately, somehow Life happens while I am working on a post. I will say it took me a while to put together the post for Candy’s pictures – it was very hard to choose which ones to add. I have written about Monday and Tuesday two weeks ago – by Wednesday I was worn out from thinking about it all. Thinking about may not have been the smartest thing to do, but I know I tend to over analyze things, a habit I am working on to be in a more positive way.
Wednesday I felt better after a good night’s sleep. I began to realize there was no feeling of satisfaction from yelling back at the guy – I thought I would feel I had been able to stand up for myself. Looks as if I have changed more than I had realized. Instead of satisfaction, it felt very uncomfortable and pointless. I wanted to be right and it looks as though he was more determined to be right. Besides, do I want to be right or happy? I am hearing higher self’s voice more now rather than ego’s.
I was glad it was Wednesday because I could go to Breakfast club, they always cheer me up and are the highlight of the week. Then I had an appointment with my chiropractor right after that.
I went to see Dr. Cheryl for my adjustment and she told me something that changed my perspective. In Aikido, they use momentum rather than brute force. If someone comes at you, instead of standing your ground and meeting it face on, they use the momentum of the person coming at you to deflect in another direction. It is one of those times when I have a general idea of what she means but not really a specific, real life example to make it more clear. I need to read about it so I can understand it better; to come to the “I know that I know” point.
In the afternoon we went to see Tom, our mortgage broker – to sign some papers – he usually has a thick pile for us. Then we had to wait for a closing date. Progress comes slowly on some things.
Thursday I was due to meet a new friend from Linked In – she went to Burnley about the time I did. We were going to meet at 10, then there was an appointment made for that time for Mom to be fitted for new shoes. So I asked Chris if she would mind changing to 11:30 or noon. That was fine with her. So I met Mom up at the Center so Scott could measure her feet. The shoes she is wearing are too tight for her because she has so much swelling in her ankles and feet. She sits most of the time and won’t put her feet up to drain the excess fluid, so we are hoping the new shoes will adjust to the amount of fluid. She was not all that anxious to have her feet measured or have new shoes – the old Yankee New Englander thrift coming out. It all worked out well and I was able to meet Chris for lunch in plenty of time.
Yes, he is supposed to be upside down!
We talked about Burnley and she brought her portfolio with her. She has her own, rather whimsical style I like. Reminds me of fairies ad wood sprites. She brought me a card with one of her designs as a gift. she knew the instructors much better than I did, plus she is a working artist, chef and I don’t know what else. We laughed and had a great time, then she had to leave because she cooks for an Indian family and she had to go home and start preparing things to take over to their house. We definitely decided to meet again, she suggested going to her house and she will cook. So that will be fun.
I was delighted to have my massage Friday morning – that time I didn’t say a whole lot and really enjoyed the massage. it felt like a very stressful week, though I was in a lot better frame of mind at the end of the week. We went to visit Mom on Saturday morning to wish her a Happy Mother’s Day with some flowers and chocolate. We only take a little bit now because she is so aware of it being there and she can’t go to sleep until she has eaten it all. I have been bringing 3 cookies for her at a time, otherwise she would devour the whole box.
We went on Saturday because Eddie had to work on Mother’s Day at the Future of Flight. I went with him and wandered around a bit, then called my friend Charlotte around 2. I wasn’t sure what she was doing because in the past she and her husband would go to church and then visit with their son and his wife and kids. Things are at sixes and sevens right now so I took a chance. She was delighted to hear from me, she said Ron was in bed with bronchitis and she was out doing a couple of things. So we met at a Hancock Fabrics to visit for an hour or so. I was sorry it was short, but I needed to be back at the Future of Flight when Eddie was ready to leave. I had the car so he wasn’t going anywhere without me.
It had been a good day and we were both tired. It didn’t start to rain until we were leaving for home. Ain’t that the way of it? The end to a stressful week but I realize as time goes by, I am realizing how much I am growing and learning. Some times it is uncomfortable, sometimes it is really cool.
Tags: Burnley, Charlotte, Hancock Fabrics, Happy Mother's Day, Mother
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May 19, 2013 at 2:05 pm |
I’ve just caught up on your last few posts – I’ve been a bit behind last couple of weeks. Sounds like you’ve had a lot going on what with being shouted at amongst other things. As ever I have enjoyed reading your posts and I admire you for the way that you approach things and analyse how you are feeling and where you are at in the big scheme of things. Understanding how we feel is a huge part of coping with things and it sounds like you are really starting to get a handle on this. Good luck with everything and really enjoyed the photos. Take care, Jade.
May 19, 2013 at 4:21 pm |
Thank You so much Jade. I so appreciate reading your comments. I keeping going on the theory that every situation and what it brings is all part of the journey – sometimes it takes a while for me see it objectively. It is times like these that show me I have become more aware than I realized – things are starting to make sense.
Hope all is well with you.