Gift of RA

In some ways it is hard to realize today is my 67th birthday.  I don’t feel old enough for 67 – then again, I don’t feel any particular age.  It is just a number to show how long I have been on this earth for this lifetime.   I know I am smarter and more aware than I was at 20, 40 or 60 – I’ve learned a thing or two during these years.  I also know there are things I don’t know about; and I can spend the next 67 years still not knowing and be perfectly happy.  It’s always interesting to wonder what turns my life would have taken if I had had today’s knowledge  – but it would only be speculation.  Would I have looked at things and situations differently; made different choices?  I am still working on understanding and knowing that I know this life is perfect for me.

There are days when I think – I’m too old or it’s too late  to start a new life, career or create a new life work.  Time is marching on too fast for me, I haven’t found or created my purpose for being here yet.  Or am I doing it and not know I am?    Another part of me says “It’s never too late!”, I still have a good 20, maybe 30 years to create so many things.   I would much rather listen to that side than the too old/too late side.It’s because I have not found that which excites and energizes me, that I would pay someone so I could do it – that feeling and know ing this is where I belong.  I wonder if it comes to everyone that way, or are there many other ways that may not have that “I know that I know” feeling.

I can spend the day looking back and waxing philosophical, or enjoy the day because “It’s My Birthday!”.  It may be foggy, chilly and not as bright as it could be, but it is a new day and so many possibilities are waiting for me.  Yes, sun would be nice, but not a requirement.  I have been wished Happy Birthday by my sisters, a lovely card from my friend Char, plus wishes from my Breakfast Group this morning.  My lovely husband Eddie is taking me to dinner at Il Fornaio downtown tonight – our favorite place to go for lunch or dinner.  I am very thankful and grateful for my family, friends and all those who care about me.  I am blessed with so much.

Oh my Heavens!  There is a bit of sun outside my window – My day is complete!

What else I have planned for my birthday – I am going to see Cindy, my acupuncturist.  I am doing better but still have the cough.  Hoping it will be gone very shortly.  this is Eddie’s short day, he is at the archives and will be back about 1>00.  We’ll spend time together and then go out to Il Fornaio for dinner.  We’ll probably go to bed around 9 – I have given Eddie some of my stuff and he is trying to stave it off too.

To all of you who are sharing my birthday, have a wonderful day and a Happy, Happy Birthday To You!

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