I just realized it has been too long since I wrote – Life does happen while I am planning. I will say, this last week was really busy – I spent 4 1/2 days glued to the computer doing quotes for a new client. She emailed late Friday afternoon and by Tuesday I was so tired I couldn’t see straight. I finished all the ones she asked for on Tuesday evening because I knew I had appointments all day Wednesday and Thursday. She needed them for a board meeting Thursday, so by the time I hit the wall, I was done. She was very pleased with the result, so that really felt good. However, that left me with a very sore neck and right arm and shoulder from using the mouse and staring at the screen for so long. I felt really good that I finished them and they were well received. I have been doing things (or not doing things) to rest and take it easy for a bit, now I am feeling more myself as well as more rested and comfortable.
The highlight of my week was Thursday afternoon when I went to see my friend Kathie Brodie, a hypnotherapist. She has had training in a new technique called the Eisdale Technique that takes you through 5 levels. About 4 weeks ago I did the first part – sometimes people can do it all in one session, just depends on the person. It was quite interesting because all the time we were doing it, I felt as though I was completely conscious doing it, yet she was working with my superconscious and I could feel my Yes and No fingers responded but I didn’t do anything. We went to 2 levels because that was superconscious knew I was ready for at that point. I went in thinking I was working on RA but since it is not always necessary to know specifically, it can just be referred to as The Issue. Sometimes superconscious says it is necessary to be that detailed, to know exactly what the issue is, what the cause is and in what lifetime. That means playing 20 questions to find out exactly what is needed. As all of this is going on, I was also interested in the questions she asked, how she asked, etc.
I remember Kathie asking superconscious questions about negative emotions and I could feel the tears come even though I wasn’t sure what it was about. By the end of the hour and half session, I had been in two levels, the lowest 2. She was very pleased with the result because she said I had moved so much energy and am very willing and open. The reason we only did 2 levels was because when she asked superconscious if I had had enough, she said yes. I have to admit, I wasn’t quite sure anything had happened, but I trust Kathie that something definitely did happen. I apparently let go of a lot of negative emotions and stuff from my past and present and she made sure those empty spots were filled with love and worthiness. When she brought me out, I had to come back slowly and let everything reintegrate before I left. I remember my legs feeling odd, a kind of tingling plus some in my right fingers. She said it would continue to process and that we would do another session to work on the other levels.
We planned to do the next session the next week, but she ended up coming down with the bad flu going around, so I told her to just let me know when she felt back to her full strength and we would plan a day. Over the past weeks I have felt more open to things, there isn’t that angst about knowing my purpose that I have had for quite a while. I felt as if it didn’t matter, whatever Spirit and the Universe had in mind – it could be something I had never thought of or so different from what I think it might be.
This week we met for the second session and I think it was in the healing level since superconscious said there wasn’t any other level needed to work on. We worked on negative emotions and clearing them – there were 2 areas that were really heavy, I felt my muscles tighten as if I was pushing all of it out of me. At one point I felt the tingling in my legs and then a bit later my back was cold – Kathie had put a blanket over me, so there must have been something about what I was working on at that point. This was probably another hour and half - once again it was hard to believe anything had really happened. It has all been happening at the superconscious level, bypassing conscious and subconscious minds. I trust Kathie that a lot had been accomplished and have decided to know that I know it is true. She said I will continue to process it in my dreams and when I am awake. The most surprising thing was to learn the cause is from another lifetime, though superconscious didn’t need to know what it is or what lifetime.
I am so very grateful to her, she has been such a wonderful friend over the past months, helping me to see things in a different way. She is objective about it while I am too close to it. She tells it straight, but in a very loving way. I highly recommend seeing her to find out what will work for you. She has several different types of modalities and it is all done with loving kindness. I will keep you posted on what I notice in the next few weeks.